She Eats Truth

April 24, 2014

To be honest, I have been avoiding this post....

For a couple of reasons.
ONE- the obvious, I wasn't fallowing through with the thing I was writing about after I wrote it. I would get ready, pump myself up and prep then Blah nothing.
TWO- I needed to stop writing about it and just do it. This go around like I said before I was ready for a life change and not just a "diet".

A while back I took a Mommy break for a weekend and heading to Seattle to spend some time with my best friend. I needed the break, I needed the quite, I needed the rebut. When I was there I bought The Body Book by Cameron Diaz and dove right in. This is what I have been waiting for! You always here "Don't Eat That", "Trans fats are Bad", "Organic", "Whole Wheat"... But why? I needed more. I never want to say the word Diet again! I want a life change and that is my mission. Over the last few weeks my mind has enjoyed the challenge of breaking the old habits and creating a new life style. With this change comes health, feeling alive & enjoying the true beauty of food. God made food. I have for once in my life enjoyed the change and not embarrassed the "diet".  Sure I have my fall backs and mindlessly eat but its ok as long as I give myself grace and know that tomorrow is a new day

This is were I am
This is were I am Alive
This is were I am Happy



~Enjoy Today,
Stephanie
 

February 10, 2014

Pinterest has created a craftier out of everyone, a designer of fashion out of the ladies and a chief in the kitchen for those that never wore a white hat. My late night obsession is this little wall of images that gets me motivated to create. When I put my mind to a project its all or nothing. I cant stand to wait on the mail for items to complete my projects. Being limited on an island and creativity put together gets pricy and lengthy but my point is I love to challenge myself to create, accomplish and succeed. So, my question to myself is "How come I can succeed to the max on my little projects but when it comes to the one thing that matters the most I am afraid?" Afraid to finish? Afraid to be happy? Afraid to not have an excuse? Afraid to succeed? Lots of questions here but they are all true. I find myself being satisfied with "quick fix" projects. My journey is not going to be a "quick fix" and will never have an ending. I need to learn to put just as much energy into myself as I do others and my projects. My biggest hurdle has been accepting this is not a quick fix and this is a journey.

"Be Kind, Everyone You Meet Is Fighting A Hard Battle"

Accepting there is no finish is different. You never start something in life to not have an end. We are taught this from the beginning of life so mentally training your mind from something you were taught to un-teaching is different. This week my focus isn't just on what goes in my mouth but how I need to enjoy the little success in that moment. My finish is after every small success for there will never be an end here on earth.

Day One.... Again.

 

January 27, 2014

Through this journey I need to remind myself its just that, a journey. Not a quick fix, not a fast track and not an overnight success.

 "This is a battle I will fight my whole life, I just want to say I have won more then I have lost."

This past week I have lost interest. I can see the result in the mirror but my ummf <-- sound it out ;)  is gone. I know its not far away and I have not resorted back to any long term bad eating habits, thank GOD! But I also know my mind has been extremely busy with other projects so my main focus isn't on myself and it needs to be there for me to succeed. When my mind is distracted I grab quick fix food rather then preparing and prepping which leads me to stay in the same place. In this time I need to remember I have not giving up. I need to remember I am worth it and this to shall pass. This is not a failure and this is a life time journey. 

"When the path gets steep stop and take a break, catch your breath and enjoy the view."

Total Pounds Lost-10

Total Inches Lost-8

January 20, 2014

I'm going out of my mind. This last week was much harder then when I started a few weeks ago! I am having a battle in my head... "I'm so hungry, this will pass, I'm just going to eat something, NO NO its not worth it...." Ugg, I think my hormones are kicking in and I just want to eat a burger and fries, pizza, candy, COFFEE or anything that I am not supposed to.

You know that little voice that you keep battling with (the evil one)? That's my struggle not the food. So along with my mental battles this week came surrendering or in other words driving like I just robbed a bank to the nearest Starbucks with a hood on like I am hiding from the calories police and getting my five minute satisfaction and feeling like I won... Really... won? So lame! Here is what I just won: "Congratulations Stephanie (in a deep echoed microphone voice) You just won five minutes of self enjoyment fallowed by 24hrs of guilt, 250+ calories and a good two days back track from your diet!!!"

"If I can talk myself out of it, I can talk myself into it."  

The other night B came home from work and I was so hungry (in my mind) I was ready to give in. I said "screw it" and grabbed a box of macaroni and cheese, yes the box kind... While grabbing the pot I looked at it and realized I am giving into the battle in my head rather then really being hungry. Telling yourself NO is a lot harder then loving yourself for doing so. Although it is a "diet" I am on its the mental battle that will determine my success.

 "Mental Battle" face right here.

Total Pounds Lost-11lbs

Total Inches Lost- 8.75"

January 13, 2014

 Since I have been telling myself for a whole year that I was going to get healthy and lose some weight its a lot easier this go around preparing. I feel like I have mentally prepared for it and I'm just ready. I had to write down some pre-diet things that would help myself achieve rather then set myself up to fail. Like I said in my first She Eats Truth post I know what works and what doesn't work for me. I needed at jump start diet that will shed some pounds and get me motivated so I started the HCG diet. I have done this diet in the past and chose it again because it has the biggest and fastest results. Is it the healthiest?  Probably not. Do I follow it correctly? No, I am human and a 500calorie diet only works a few days of week for me.  My all time favorite diet is the Atkins diet and I will probably do that one after I phase this one out. Like I said, I know what I need and what works for me.

Here are ten ways that I set myself up to SUCCEED!

Plan it out- I like to take a weekend and plan out my meals so I have them ready in the fridge for the week ahead all the way down to the correct serving size of my meats. This helps me to not have a wounding eye when I'm hungry and preparing my meal. I am human and will have a sweet tooth at night so I prepare healthy "sweets" to have if that craving kicks in so I don't grab something else.

Lots Of Water- It's true, the more you drink the more you lose. I also noticed if I am on a plateau it helps to guzzle the water. (But man what I would give for Starbucks!!!)

Smaller Bites- Mind over Matter, yup if I am really hungry I will cut a lot more bit size pieces of my food so it takes longer to eat and looks like a lot more. Does it work? For now.

Taste Test- This is a big one for me. I find it less desirable if I don't know what I am missing. Sometimes a small bite or a lick will kill the cravings BUT I've had this go terribly wrong in the past.  

Avoid Temptations- This goes along with the taste testing. If I go to an event that will have a food bar or a friends house I will eat before I go or take along my own snacks. Its not being rude its being loving to yourself. This is one thing you can be selfish about and get away with it feeling loved.

Stay Busy- My boredom eating will set in when I am not doing anything or zoned out to the T.V. So needles to say my Husband loves that dinners are made, Laundry is done and the house is shining! I on the other hand miss my boredom eating HA!

Buy Cheat Food- Yup that's what I said. Its going to happen eventually so I want a healthier approach to "cheating" on a diet so I buy food that if I am going to cheat its a little healthier. Everyone likes a crunchy snack or that sweet & salty mix so my "cheat" food it veggie chips. I love them which makes my struggle hard to only eating a couple and then stop.

Eat in silence- This one is probably the hardest above every other one. Not only am I addicted to the HGTV channel I have a One Year old. The purpose for me to eat in silence is to enjoy my food and not inhale it. Its amazing how much flavor you miss out on by being distracted.

Go to bed early- My boredom eating is in full attack at night so I just have to go to bed early sometimes to avoid it. Talk about mind battles, ugg.

And my final and favorite:

This to shall pass- Its just one day, its just one hour, its just a minute.

Results:

-Total Pounds Lost- 8#

-Total Inches Lost- 8.75"

  

(This is my personal journey. I am no way linked to any diets talked about on my page)

December 23, 2013

My heart is heavy, My time is now, I know what works for ME.

This is my journey of struggles, grace, compassion & forgiveness.

I've struggled with weight gain, weight lose, repeat for so long now its hard to remember the last time I had that feeling of acceptance and feeling alive. In the early stages it never seemed like a struggle but more so filling a void of some kind and just plain boredom eating. She Eats Truth is an ongoing blog post for myself about my personal struggles with food addictions, inner self battles but most of all the love and grace for who I am along the way. Its time to start telling myself the truth.

"Every Diet works, if it fail its because I allowed it to."

I gave myself a time. A time that I just let myself be, except my body for the gift it just gave, be kind to my stretch marks, love my curves and most of all not to worry about me but focus on my Son and his needs for the first year of his life and just really embrace this time. I told myself when Bryson turns one my time is just that, my time. Not the greatest timing around the Holidays but I know if I get through this there is no excuses. Besides there will always be more Holiday fest and this is a promise I made to myself a year ago. I feel like my struggle with food is 50% boredom eating, 30% addicting and 20% its just plain GOOD! I want to drop some lb's to get healthy, I want to be my old self physically and enjoy feeling healthy and more alive. I get stuck in a rut of carbs and junk food. Enough is enough. I know what works for me but I also now what doesn't. This time around I want to try something different. That's were this blog post comes in. I've tried a handful of diets in the past and guess what? They all worked! Yup, Worked. The problem.... Me. Once I was down to a comfortable weight I give in to the 50% boredom eating. This go around the only difference is telling myself the truth about how I feel and except if I fail and need to start over. I want to keep posting about it so I can give myself grace and forgiveness along the way and have support to look back on. I also know when I start this journey I need a jump start diet. I'll fill you guys in on what that is later. The only thing standing in my way is my mouth, mind, boredom eating and all that AMAZING God giving food. Yum... Like I said, I will give myself grace in this process because the only way through this journey is truth, love and forgiveness.

Goal:  Pounds to lose- 50lbs

Week 1...

(This is my personal journey. I am no way linked to any diets talked about on my page)